Ok, so let me lay down some background information for you. I'm a high school senior in a school that has a guy to girl ratio of 5:1. That's right five guys to every one girl. In a senior class of about fifty students. So all ready the competition is tough. And, just to make matters worse, I have really bad self esteem issues. Issues like I'll constantly compare my success with women to other guys, and instantly hate myself for not being like them. I also tend to linger on my failures, not just with women but in general. I'm the kinda guy who just getting bugs from women is a big accomplishment for me. I'm also the guy who gets oneitis really easily too, which I attribute to my low self esteem. It's pretty much always been this way for me. Now, don't get me wrong, I have made progress, I went from being a shy guy to actually interacting with women last year, I also broadened my scope of women I knew, trying to break any and all oneitis, But tonight, I've hit the lowest I've been in two years. Oh, also I weigh 240 so my looks, which i am working on, aren't doing me any favors. So, tonight we had our last dance before prom, kind of a big deal I guess so I decided to attend. Got in, took a look at the crowd and saw all the girls in my class, all ten of them, on the dance floor. And I think great, I'm gonna grind on them. Nope. I literally stood in the same general area, only moving to avoid knocking into people for 2 and a half hours. Doing what ever dance moves other people were doing around me. There were a few times that I tried to dance with the girls, but my confidence was just so shit. Before too long I started doing that thing where I compare my success to others, and it just continued to plumit. Around 9:30, two and a half hours in, I had to get out of there. It was as if every second I spent in there just reminded me of how much of a fuck up I am. So, with an hour and a half left in the dance, I got on my bike, and rode home, deciding not to go to prom on the way. I'm not asking you guys to fix everything, this is just something that is just really bugging me. I would like to know if there was anyone else in this sort of situation that could help me. Or maybe just some encouraging words or something. Really, it's been shit the last couple of months, this girl I was interested in, one of the ten in the school, turned out to be a lesbian, and then this happening. It makes me really look forward to college where there'll at least be. Larger variety. Well I've said enough, cheers all. TLDR:I have shit confidence, in a school with 5:1 guy girl ratio, and after a shitty turn of events, I hit an all time low in 2 years at a dance.