Hi seddit!

I have one problem. When I've drunk a little bit I can do most of the things told here naturally, I can keep eye contact, actually I keep a strong one, kino, tease, etc., except for opening, I'd first pass out drunk than have the balls to go talk to a girl I don't know, but that's another story.

Now, I know this is because I lost inhibition. Some of the restrictions I find everyday are lost and I can be a little bit more "myself". But there's one thing I don't understand: Interest. Seriously.

I normally don't have interest on what people tell me, because my mind wanders uncontrollably I can't focus clearly on what I am being told (that happens to me when I study or focus on something complex). As a result, I am constantly saying huh? what? can you repeat that please? okay wait a second... because I can't process everything as a whole. At the same time, I find most of things told to me boring, boring as hell, maybe as a result of the first issue, I don't know. I got to the point where I was worried because I had no genuine interest in people (have been reading Mr. Carnegie).

When I am a bit dizzy it's completely different, I focus my attention completely and I find everything amazing. That's why when I am in that state my eyes are a mix of "I want you" (when it's a girl) and "You are fucking fascinating". And it's true, I am totally fascinated by that person, almost as a kid discovering new things for the first time.

I remember a girl telling me she was a musician and I was thinking: are you telling me that your job is to produce one of the most beautiful sounds known to men? And I kept asking her questions about her job, and her life and I was truly expectant at every bit. It was as if the world around us was gone, it was me and her, and I had to discover her. Then she told me she was half Argentinian and I just couldn't believe it. I was astonished that such a unique person could exist.

I know now it sounds stupid, and it may be, but this is how I feel about people when I am a bit drunk, everything is interesting, and I can focus my whole world on what interests me.

Well I can't do that when sober. I don't know why and I hope you can shed some light.

Thanks guys!

EDIT: TL;DR. Nothing interests me when sober, I am like a kid in a toy store when dizzy. Why?