I made a post that I wanted to do daygame everyday until I started seeing results. Today was my first day. I approached a girl but apparently she was on her way to play frisbee. We talked for only 15-20 seconds because she was in a hurry. I then invite her to go on a date with me and take her number. We departed and I later texted her, no reply.

I wandered my way to the bookstore. I felt like crap, just walking around with no direction, feeling sexually frustrated and alone. I make my way up to the second floor. I get a table by the window and just look outside and down at all the people walking by, and I just get even more depressed. I do that for a while and then for some reason I started to feel angry. I didn't want to be in the bookstore anymore and I started to feel a level of rage inside of me. I decided I just wanted to leave and say fuck it to everything. I started leaving in a rage but by the time I was almost out of the bookstore I realize that it doesn't even matter, I'm just going to go home and masturbate anyway, getting into a rage about it won't solve my problems. I decided that I would just go outside and try to approach another girl by some benches. As I walk outside I see an average looking girl walk past me, I was desperate so I just went up to her and opened. She didn't even look that attractive but she was immediately friendly to me. We chatted and then she invited me to walk with her, she was on her way home. I thought this was an opportunity for me to just go home with her. We kept chatting some more as we walked and I tried to bring up my state to enjoy the conversation when just minutes ago I was in a rage. Apparently she had to go grocery shopping so we stopped by there. She bought some groceries, we chatted some more as we did this and it was mildly fun. I complimented her once I believe. I wanted to go back to her place after the grocery shopping so afterwards I suggested we could go back to her's and cook the stuff she bought. She said that she was fine though. She said that she was heading home now, I took her number at that point and then just left.

Obviously I didn't have a good interaction. I was coming from a terrible mindset. The current mindset that I have is cancerous to me and is damaging me. The sad part is that this mindset is promoted by my lack of success. And my lack of success is promoted by this mindset. It's like a vicious cycle that I'll never be able to get out of unless I wake up tomorrow morning and decide to feel happy about everything and anything, even if I get rejected 5 times in a row. I texted this girl I'd say 45 minutes ago and I got no reply. I feel like I screwed up an easy opportunity. I'm frustrated and this frustration is sabotaging my chances. I don't know what to do anymore. Every single day I just jack off too, this feeling is terrible.