(This got a little long, but i left a tl;dr at the end) Seddit, I need your help. I found the community about 3 years ago, as i was entering my 3rd year of high school. I had a great wingman, and little by little, we learnt this together. The following 2 years was amazing. I got quite good, and although I doubted myself and my skills for a long time, i eventually realized this. I got completely out of my shell, i had so much fun, so many friends, and always a girl I could call.

After high school, last year, I did a year in the army in a very demanding position giving me very little leave. During long days with very high expectations, i brought with me the mindset that i could do anything i set my mind to, and got out of there with a great review a few months ago.

All great. Now for this year, i thought ok, lets keep pushing my comfort-zone. I've moved to a new city to study here, wanting to make it completely on my own, create a new social circle, setting my own rules and demands etc. But after moving here i've gotten so much further back into my shell. I haven't been in the game for a year and a half, and in high school I always went to house parties, or meeting friends of friends, having solid social proof from everyone i knew, never having to face the fear of cold approaches. So upon arriving here i began doubting myself again, thinking I didn't have game for shit without all my social proof.

I'm spiraling downwards! I'm becoming anti-social just not wanting to talk to people. I've started procrastinating everything. I'm noticing myself taking more anger out on small things that annoy me, even though i know i'm just mad at myself for not getting out fixing this. I'm drinking much more than i used to. I'm beating myself up every time i'm outside for not doing my actual first cold approach. I now recognize myself as a value-taking people pleaser. And to top it all of i know I'm just being a scared little bitch feeling sorry for myself. I know exactly what to do to get right back up actually living my life and having fun, but i just sit here watching TV-series in my little comfort-zone and I hate myself for it...

I don't even know what I'm asking for here, but i can't keep going like this! Thanks to all of you who took the time to read this whole thing, and please Seddit, give me your advice like you have done so many times before, even though I'm coming to you guys crying like a little bitch...

Tl;dr: Had game, had fun, lived. Moved to a new city to make it completely on my own, everything went to shit, i'm sitting around in my comfort-zone hating myself, spiraling downwards. Please help!

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