Last year i was a beta male who believed in that pure maiden from watching way too much anime and living in a fantasy world that had been fed to me since i was a kid. I've lived most of my life as a loser who never did anything, never really had any friends or ambitions. I was so depressed about not having a girlfriend and not being able to get laid that i completely gave up on life. I turned into a 23yo NEET. But i got red pilled, i still don't know if its the worst or best thing that has ever happened to me. When i first started reading about this stuff i couldn't believe it or rather i didn't want to believe it. I had built this fantasy up for so long that i couldn't just have it fall apart so i did everything to try and reinforce it. But it of course didn't work and i woke up and i got angry, to be honest I'm still pretty bitter that this is the way things are. I used to want women, now i just despise them. I don't know if thats the normal reaction to getting red pilled but thats the way i feel nowadays. My new found hate has been freeing, the anxiety i used to feel when talking to women is completely gone. They no longer have anything i want. I'm still a loser beta, omega, zeta i don't know what you would call me now but, my life has gotten better. I've been getting out in the world and trying to get some a semblance of a life together instead of sitting at home doing nothing being depressed. I also started working out to get some confidence which i severely lack and feel like a man instead of a manchild. I've been keeping at that for about 6 months now. I feel like most of the stories on the red pill of guys getting red pill usually lead them to getting laid more. I've completely lost all interest in women after taking the pill. I told somebody this and they just accused me of being sour grapes. That might be true but I really don't know.

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