So I have been going out and drinking for many years, used to be addicted to opiates, swore they made me invincible because I would get a 8-10 almost every weekend, which cased me to become an addict over time. couldnt live like that anymore so I stopped opiates have been 50 days clean and havent even thought to go back, I have seen the light, and realized I dont need them to get women. I have still been doing good for myself without using.

Now I want to stop drinking or at least not as much maybe 2-3 to start but eventually I would love to have the confidence to not use alcohol as liquid confidence and get where I am at, or better without it. I went out once before probably first time in 10 years sober, it was weird for me. I have literally been killing it all fucked up for years with women, killing it. LOVED the results I got drunk/high. But when I went out sober I felt out of place. I wasnt as funny, wasnt the life of the party, and could tell women were not reacting they way they usually do. It seemed as thought I was coming off as an asshole. No one was laughin at my jokes I felt so beta, which is not me. My flirting was coming off as insults. ehhh.

I even saw a hot girl stare at me and all I could muster up was a hi as I walked by, kept thinking about approaching which normally I would'nt give to shits, Id walk up and kill it. Now something kept holding me back. "what do I say after hi? whats up Im dean." (so totally in my head) and this is unusual for me, I had a conversation with a guy and a girl earlier and I just felt out of place, I knew if I approached this girl it would feel the same. Was there with two women I met up with. They were laughing, being funny and having a blast and I felt as though I couldnt contribute to anything. It sucked I NEVER felt this way. I almost gave in and starting drinking but I didnt. Im usually the social butterfly who is talking to everyone and gets to choose what women I want, I felt lost tonight, wtf?

anyone have any experience or advice on this? Its so hard to go from killing it for so many years, sleep with so many hot women on a weekly basis, then go completely backwards it hard to get over without just wanting to drink...any advice?