My girl fucked some guy and fucked me the day after. I found out a few days later. Went to her house, we had a talk, I was calm, unemotional, told her I was hurt, kinda joked around a little, told her she was fucked up for what she did. Told her we're done and I'm leaving. I did show I was hurt. But my extreme restraint and aloofness with how I handled it has been really fucking with me. There's a lot of things I never got to tell her, I just wanted to yell at her and tell her what a whore she was, especially when she asked me if I could take her back. I wanted to tell her, "Do you really think I'll take back a whore?" But I didn't say that. and It still bothers me that I didn't because now I'm angry at her, angry at myself for just taking it all calm. I felt like a bitch for being so calm and feminine about it. I basically sat on the couch and didn't say anything to her.

I watched porn for the first time in 3 weeks since this thing happened. When I watched all I could think of was my girlfriend getting fucked.

I felt sick to my stomach, it's a feeling I've never experienced before.

I felt disgusted with myself because I had sex with her, disgusted with her, disgusted with sex, disgusted by women.

Their whoriness knows no bounds and it's a huge turn off. How am I gonna fuck another girl.

I was nauseated by it. I don't know if I'll be able to enjoy sex. The girl in the video was such a whore that it bothered me. It disgusted me to see the nature of women and see how whorey they were to the point that it made me sick.

Is this normal?