This is a long story guys, and I didn't realize how much of a disadvantage I was at until I swallowed the pill two months ago. Background: I've known this girl, let's call her Rachael, for a good 5 years. She had a kid with an alpha dude and planned on marrying, but he started cheating on her, then she started to break him down, and she got sick of him. She started cheating on him as revenge with me (and other dudes), but I was also her beta to complain to- using the occasional sex/teasing me as a way to keep me interested. I didn't really care at the time. I could just go over and mess around when I wanted, so things weren't bad. One time after crying over her BF she asked me how I felt about her, and I said I was just fine with being friends. She stopped talking to me for months after that. Over the last 2 years is when shit just hits the fan. I was seeing her too much, hanging out with her too much, and slowly developing feelings. She started dating her millionaire boss (of course she's his assistant) who buys her everything she wants - car, apartment with an extra room for her kid, purses, dresses, even a boob job. He divorced his wife while seeing Rachael, and even proposed to Rachael. In my beta mind I figured if she got married to this dude I couldn't fuck her anymore which is what turned my feelings into full blown oneitis. Now she's completely in love with the guy - he's her "prince charming", gives her the best sex ever, he's all she ever thinks about, etc. I decide to tell her my feelings at the height of all this, expecting to be shot down spectacularly and finally get rid of my oneitis. She doesn't. She tells me I'm too early and that I'm the type of guy she'd marry down the road.

What really screwed with my mind the most was that she still called me when he wasn't around, and still wanted to cheat on him with me sometimes. She would always play the victim card saying they weren't together because of a fight or something. They've been on and off and aren't planning on marriage anymore for now. I turned her down once, and it pissed her off. I fucked her once, but I didn't "make love to her and show her my emotions" so she got pissed at me again. I was so confused and wondering why she was even talking to me when she literally had anything she wanted with her boss: he gave her everything she needed especially when she has a kid. And so...I swallowed the red pill: Hypergamy. AF/BB. LJBF. Playing Friends. SMV. Women in Love. I read (and keep reading) and everything made so much sense to the point I was feeling nauseous. I'm glad can finally see the truth for what it is...I dodged some bullets, but I'm still in a precarious situation. So finally, let's get to what's happening right now:

We're both 27. I haven't seen her in two months (since swallowing the pill). Last time I saw her she asked me if I wanted a kid with her (I said no kids until marriage) and then I said I couldn't marry her. She very directly told me I was useless to her, and didn't want to have sex with me because I suck and don't turn her on. I told her that made me upset, but it was her call and I left. After about of month of silence from both of us, she started to send me pictures of her in new dresses, called me, FB messaged me. I barely reply. Recently she's been manipulating my even more beta friend into trying to get me to see her, or keeping tabs on me. And last night I got a text saying "you were supposed to be mine tonight"

After swallowing the red pill I have to say all of this is really pissing me off...and really turning me on at the same time. Rachael's Machiavellian to the max, wants me to be her emotional sponge/beta toy, and being a dick is barely working because of her skyrocketing confidence in getting any man she wants, and she 120% thinks she owns me. There's no doubt she has a line-up of guys at her beck and call, including the father of her child. She is a true demon getting everything she wants. So...what do I do? Should I simply radio silence her and just focus on getting plates? She actually is aware of two plates I have and hates them. Let my beta friend deal with her BS? Should I just go back and screw her brains out hard and then leave? Or will my crippling oneitis get in the way? A part of me wants to just not give a shit, and see her as a just a little girl trying to control me to the point that it's funny. But at the same time I do still have crippling feelings for her, and any tiny weakness I show she will pounce on it. Plus she's probably in a fight with her boss right now so she wants to use me in the meantime. Just...fuck. All of this really feels like I was in a sparring match with one hand tied behind my back the entire time.