I've been struggling with it for years now. For weeks I feel like I can get all the girls in the world, I enjoy life and I'm passionate about everything. Then it just ends, no matter if I still go to the gym, that I "progress" in life, the whole drive just fades away. I feel shit, I'm not witty enough, and basically don't even want to interact with people so much. These two seem to be interchanging like every 6-8 week.

Honestly I can't even keep a normal schedule since I'm at a university, and sometimes for weeks I have to study/work, and basically I'm glad if I can drink a single beer. Then all of a sudden it stops and we can go out almost every day.

So how do you keep it, how do you still go up to girls, when you can barely talk? I've had a really bad interaction with a girl who I really thought had a decent shot with, and thought she was gorgeous... Now I realize that I got too hung up on her, but I still can't put myself out there, like I'm just not in the mood, eventhough I really love meeting new people, and I want girls in my life.

Damn bunch of rambling, but I need it out of me...