I am gonna make this journal as a commitment to making progress in game and in social life. I always wanted to improve in this whole concept of socialising or game or whatever. Because it has been really alien concept for me. It's really fascinating thing to learn to how to interact with people and try to put your thoughts out there.

Anyway for today i made a big improvement by talking to the girl i was interested in, i went up to her and talked to her. Trying to show my intentions but she kind of ignored me by saying she is busy. I guess she felt weird that all of a sudden i came upto her and started talking anyway i cannot give a fuck about it. So i had to move on from this shit.

During evening i went to an event and after the invent, there was the girl i was interested in although she was in a group. So, went up there asking them some question and kind of made some conversation about the topic they were talking about. I didn't wanted to interrupt the conversation which i was part of too, after the conversation i introduced myself to everyone and to the girl also. I didn't got any alone time to talk to her but anyway happy that i tried.

While going back home my mind was trying to focus on all the fuck ups that had happened during these interactions and it was kind of making me feel bad by focusing too much on small details like saying the wrong word or acting nervous. But issue right now is i cannot view anything negatively because if i focus too much on negative stuff it can hinder my progress.