I feel like im missing a lot of things. I feel like a manchild. I feel like i dont deserve happiness. I feel like i dont deserve anything. I feel like a compelete waste of space. Im a guy that girls never liked. And guys never come up to me. Im always the one to chase and put morr effort in. And i dont enjoy my life i put pussy on pedestal so i will get nudes in return. My other side is being an asshole. Which is no good either. Im passive aggressive. I have talked to 5000 on snapchat for past 2 years. Which is a lot of time wasted. I dont know how to be a man. I dont know if i be cold or warm around people. If i joke a lot or not. I feel invisible. Im like Fredo from Godfather. And i wish i had a brother like Mich to end my life. I have posted a lot. I know.