One of my biggest weaknesses is being able to talk to people and have a conversation with them, especially women. I'm a naturally introverted person, and I suffer from low self-esteem and bad depression from a decades worth of rejection and being shunned not just by women but by people in general. I'm a naturally introverted person as well, so it's hard for me to find the motivation to want to talk to people, it's not my natural state of being. That's why I can't be talkative to people 24/7, I have to be in a good mood if I feel like talking to people. I also get depressed really easily, especially in the winter. I dread the Winter months because my depression gets a lot higher and I become extremely depressed.

There's some guys who are naturally charismatic. You probably know some people like this, they're witty, they're funny, they can make girls laugh and they can use their "flashiness" to get women to fall for them. They're everything that I am not. As a naturally introverted guy who frequently has bouts of depression, that's hard for me to be funny and witty, especially if i'm depressed.

I feel like i'm going to be single forever. I'm a short guy with aspergers. What sucks about being a man is that you have to be the one who initiates the conversation, you have to lead the conversation, you have to be the one who goes for the number, ask her out, and you have to pull this all off and risk rejection the whole time! And for me, doing all of this isn't my natural personality. I suck at conversation, in fact I wish I had a girl who did most of the talking. I hate being the one who leads, I prefer to follow. I don't like being the center of attention either. And I feel like since i'm a man, I don't have a choice but to be these things because women don't like the shy quiet guys, they certainly as hell don't like me!

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