So the we hooked up on new years, and I moved in, as I was between homes, after we started living together, we have an adjustment period still going on, also relevant to note in am a two time brain cancer survivor haven't really been able to take care of my self for sometime, she s a hippy hustler. My life went from zero to one hundred on one night. I know she will reject me on front of other people whom are all trying to fuck her, I'm not an alpha