Im lost on where to start....

And when you guys tell me to do all that stuff pressure gets on me

Or when you guys say how you did it without explaining anything I compare my self to you guys and get mad like a stupid kid and hate self even more. I compare my self to people who have ton of likes and rts compare my self to movie characters compare my self to kids even.

I started posting a year ago now im still the same..

I want to stop being a boring nice guy i want to stop chasing attention i want to have a better fucking life.. but i cant even handle a girl, i cant handle friends.

im a people pleaser to everyone, want everyone like me.. extremely selfish i know.. But im invisible to everyone, feeling like i aint important to anyone and no one gives a fuck about me and no one loves me.. i dont even disagree a lot. Just go with what they say.. im such a fool.

Might be why i never had any opinions at all. Even a kid is smarter, more quickthinker, attractive than me.

I give people the power to decide "if they want to give me their attention or not" or "if they want to talk to me or nah"

Even if they dont give me their attention or dont give a fuck about me i still chase people

I want to know how to make friends easily Not me always chasing them or trying to get them to like me super hard or getting one word replies.

I try super hard to make friends, i try to ask what they do for fun or find things in common then they get bored of and just reply with 1 words.. People can see i want attention they just slowly back up..

Then i ask them questions then judge them afterwards..becaause i have no comment instead of "cool' or "alright" its because i judge myself a lot, then it will be like a tension between 2 of us.

I ask what games they play... like whatever guy asks this? I dont know how to be interested in people. Dont know how to get people like me.

I fucking hate my self for not knowing how to make friends. I hate my self like people hate R kelly.. I run out of questions to ask, i run out of topics to talk about.

I change subjects so soon because i dont have any comments on what they are saying instead of just "cool" "nice" I dont know how to make it interesting or fun for the others..

Everyone thinks im just "nice" i think being an asshole is better than this shit, how do i be an an asshole??.nobody ever gives a fuck about no one loves me

You guys probably have ton of pussy chasing you while i have spent like 5 years chasing chicks i never got a good friend, i never got a chick to text me first. I was always "just nice" kinda guy. And always get 1 one replies. How pathetic this sounds..

I want to be cool, I want to stop being boring or bland, I want to be interesting, I want to know how to keep girls attention, I want girls to give me attention or chase me, I want to stop being a people pleaser, I want to be fun, I want people call me smart cause im stupid, I want to be a man cause im not a man, I want to stop being unlikeable, I want to have charisma cause i have 0, I want to stop giving a fuck, I want to stop being boring and nice i rather be an asshole, they get all the pussy, I want to to be funny, I want to be creative with jokes, I want twitter likes and rts so bad, I want girls to chase me online so bad, I want to leave my country cause dating isnt allowed here, i live in iraq. But dont have money and parents are strict, I want to have good friends, I want to have good conversations,

Now you guys might understand why i havent done shit to improve any of it. There is so much, i dont know how to fix any. I just cry instead. Or beat my self up.

But im just a "NICEGUY" who has nothing to offer other than being nice and im pretty fucking boring and bland.

But now the most i want it seems like its getting pussy or attention from everyone, how do i stop doing this?

And Its like i so badly want a Gf.. but im chasing something thats impossible to catch.

I know im stupid i know im pathetic I want to stop being these all... Or i should just fucking end my stupid life.. Soccer is the only thing is not letting me kill my self because i love it.. I dont even know how to reply when getting attention because i never got it.