I'm 20. I'm a tall skinny white jew.

I found the red pill 3 years ago, and for at least 2 I have been heavily applying TRP principles to my life. I am currently dating an attractive girl and a very attractive guy, both who are very submissive to me. On the one hand, I know that working out, improving my conversational skills, and dressing better have improved my life tremendously. I have gone from being mediocre looking in my teens to extremely good looking now, and everyone I know celebrates me more than they ever have. Probably because being good looking is all it takes to be loved.

On the other hand, I feel like a bitchy faggot and trust me, I'm definitely part faggot. I've worked hard to be the so called "alpha male". And still, I am just a very submissive person to the core who is pretending to be the opposite of that. I do not have very high testosterone levels. It is hard for me to gain weight even when I am dedicating lots of time to fitness. All that combined with being attracted to men makes me feel like less than a man.

Should I seek TRT or some other performance enhancer? Beyond presenting the image of a man, how does one become a man on the inside? I would appreciate some serious advice.