I finally got pushed in my face why any form of needieness is so disgusting.

I was on a tinder date with a girl. Its a little touching, but she did say she was afraid of corona, so keep it minimal. We are talking, laughung, connecting. We end upnwalking by my dorm, so I invite her in to check it out. We stay there for a while, talking. Im trying to get some. I hint at kissing her. She pulls back, so I pull back. Right after we go out to eat, and she has to leave. I suggest following her to the bus, and she bluntly refuses. Thats when I am informed that not only did I come across as clearely wanting sex more than a relationship, but she lost all respect when I tried to kiss her, after she said she had a corona scare. Also the first time I have been politely told "never talk to me again".

Havent gotten rejected like that in a while, and it made me think. Thats when I realised why it was so bad. I realised that I had a fun night with a great girl, but then basically told her nothing of her personality matters to me, because she looks good. All that chemistry was pointless, cause I was only using her. Hardcore objectification. Now I can really see why needieness it so bad. Its not just objectifying, its dehumanizing.

Had to rant to someone. Sorry