Ok this will probably be just another fucking whine-thread for you to read, but Ima make my best to not be all that negative, even tho Its fucking hard given Im at this very moment hate my fucking life, hate myself and hate basicly everything with my situation.

Well thats a great start, eh? Anyway, Im a good looking guy. What does this mean? Am I one of these deluded idiots THINKING he is good looking, "yeah man an 8 atleast!" - but whos in reality a fucking average/ugly "4" ? No. I have good masculine features, I am VERY muscular due to 8 years of body building (drug free, but time pays off). I have been told probably around 100-200 times I look good, hot, "sexy" thruout my life.

Sounds great right? Not so fast, I currently live with my mom, I live in a .. well Its not a town, I dont know the name for it, oh well its a "place" with basicly 5000 people. I have NO FRIENDS left, NOT ONE. I havent had REGULAR sex since 2009, even tho I banged some girl in like 2011, but only for like 2 times. Ive had one relationship in my life, from 2006-2009.

I used to have friends, I used to be somewhat popular, I used to have my own apartment and all that shit, then things got fucked up, fucked up job situations, being a slacker and basicly ignoring my friends due to some fucked up semi-depression (undiagnosed), now I have no money, no girls, no "social circle", no status at all, NOTHING. The only thing Ive got going for me is my looks and my body, thats it.

This is how my day goes: Wake up at around 11 AM, eat food, watch series/surf the web, then I go to the gym (every day), I work out for 1-2 hours, then I go home and surf the web again. Rinse repeat 7 days a week.

I have a part time work, making enough to buy food some some clothes, thats it.

I have basicly nothing now, my self esteem is getting lower every day that goes. Im starting to think I will fucking die a lonely loser. Fucking hell Im nearing my 30s and I dont have any friends and no money! Fuck this shit, what do I do?

One thing I know, is Im going back to university (which I fuked up before) next year. All I need to do is pass a test which Im hard studying for every day now. August 2016 I will join university for 3-5 years again. Thats the only thing I know. Apart from that, nothing. How do I even fix this? How do I get friends when I dont have one left? Im at a such low point I dont even know where to start.

I need a STEP BY STEP plan, I WANT to take action, but I dont know how. I guess Im a retarded piece of shit who cannot take action by his own, well maybe I can blaim that on my dad passing away when I was 10, I dont know.

Anyone can relate? Is it even possible to get out of this shit situation and get a good life? Is it too late, what do you think?