What the hell’s going on this thread? The comments are very misandrist- I doubt if it was somebody saying “I hate my wife” and admitting to throwing coffee over her, that these people would be celebrating it… in any case it seems like a very unhealthy relationship

I’m feeling exhausted from trying to stay composed, and it's turning me into someone I don't like. Since our last encounter (we had sex), which I regret so much, I've been struggling with feelings of disappointment and vulnerability. I feel like he took advantage of my emotional state, and now, even seeing him makes me so angry. Despite my requests for him to stop trying to make amends, he's still doing things like making iced coffee, which I’ve repeatedly asked him not to do. I’ve been throwing it out, but he continues, which only fuels my frustration. A few days ago, when he confronted me about avoiding him, I reacted by throwing the coffee in his face. I didn’t expect to act out in such a way, but my anger took over

Afterward, he followed me to my room, questioning my actions and calling me crazy. I told him what was truly crazy was him leaving me and our 4 week old baby to be with another woman, and then returning as if everything should go back to normal. He asked what he could do to make things better, and I told him stay the fuck away from me

Since he works from home, he’s constantly around, and I can’t find any peace during the day. I try to be out of the house as much as possible, taking our baby for walks and spending time with my parents. His presence has overshadowed my experience as a mother, and I often find myself lost in thoughts about what he’s done, feeling detached and overwhelmed

Today, he asked to spend more time with our son and suggested I take some me time. I took him up on the offer and left them together for the morning, but even then, I couldn't relax. My mind was racing with thoughts of our son and everything my husband has put us through. I’m still really affected and find myself crying often, most nights struggling to sleep. I’ve attempted therapy, but my sessions have been difficult because of how emotional I am

I just needed to vent and I appreciate all the support from everyone

A summary of my past posts: My husband left me and our newborn for another woman, then returned weeks later claiming he made a mistake. AP reached out to me and gave me details about the affair. Now that he’s back and wants to make amends, I’m done with it

A lot of people are questioning why I don’t leave the house. I did leave when he returned to our home after coming back from living with another woman. I went to stay with my parents, but my lawyer advised me to go back to our home. Now that I’m back, I’ve asked him to give me space, but he’s refusing to do so. I wish he would just leave, but I can’t force him since he’s legally allowed to be here too