As the titles states was in a relationship for almost 19years, engaged for 4 years and today she let me know she no longer wants to be with me. It's not out of the blue, things have been rocky for months now. I guess I just thought we could repair, move and work through it. I'm 36m BTW. Feel super lost and depressed not sure how to move foward . She said she would leave our apartment and I could stay with our dog, so that's a plus I guess. I'm having a really hard time seeing my future without her. She has some mental health issues and I've been doing it all for a while now, paying all the bills, cook ,clean anything to make her happy ( or so I thought ) I've been reading this sub and it seems alot of people are going through the same thing. No kids , which some people might see as a plus but I see it as losing my chance for a family. Ranting at the moment , scared I'll never find some one else and won't be happy ever again. She's been such a huge part of my lifeand I find my self spiraling now and don't want to go back to drugs and alcohol to deal. For everyone else going through something similar I truly feel for you, and hopefully we can all heal and move past these bad times in our lives. I appreciate the reddit community 🙏 and maybe some one has up lifting words to help get me through the night