I (19M) have a problem with building a meaningful connection with people I talk to. I work as a intern in a nearly all female department for close to a year. With this also being a people facing job I have developed a skill for small talk. We can have a conversation about anything, but the thing is I couldn’t give a singular fuck less. Matter of fact, my coworkers keep inviting me to informal after work events, parties, oktoberfest, etc… and I feel bad for them thinking I am enjoying talking and spending time with them. It’s not that I hate them, they are good honest people, I just feel indifferent. This attitude over the past couple of months has spilt over into my dating life. I’m a fit slightly below average looking dude, so my dates are few and far between, but fuck me I am a fumbler. A intern from another department asked me out for a coffee and we were having (in her eyes) a great conversation. She really wanted to guess my birthday and after some tried I revealed to her it’s 14th, she couldn’t stop giggling about it telling me she doesn’t believe me because she’s on the 15th. That day I was hungover, and accidentally let the mask slip. After staring into blank space for what felt like only a couple of seconds, she looks me in the eyes and says in a concerned but soft tone “you don’t seem to care at all do you?”. The conversation then completely fizzled out after a short while and I left to pay the bill. This is one of several examples where I professionally airball essentially given shots by not connecting and reciprocating that feeling or letting a conversation die out because why “chase” her when… I don’t fucking know. I’m just tired man. Tired of these endless superficial conversations about idfk weather, gossip, home or whatever. Please help.