Divorce is almost final. I moved out to Hawaii with wife and when she left I have no family in the area. I got one month left before I move back home to Washington. Struggling with so much emotions and guilt. I spent years telling my wife I didn’t want to be married to her. I had avoidant attachment and didn’t realize I was pushing her away because of fear of closeness. I had never gone through break up before and wife was my first love so I didn’t know what heart break felt like. Anyone feel like the divorce was the majority there fault. How did you navigate the emotions and guilt. Dealing with high levels of depression and pain.