I posted on here a couple of days ago about her leaving she at her mom's im here and we are still talking and I'm going to see her next weekend I'm still in my head about the whole ordeal one minute I m in love and want to do anything to save it the next I'm pissed because she bailed on us with out even trying to talk about it the next I'm just tired of it trying to except that it probably over 20 together done we still talking trying to have a some what normal conversation im not trying smothered her give her some space but it's just tearing me a part i know that all of this pain and suffering im doing to me im just in that place and I hate filling this way I gone through a divorce the first one was cheating so it was easy but a little hard to walk away but pride got the best of me I was young I waited about 10 years and just worked on me until I thought the time was right to try again this time together a lot longer I have been in therapy to make changes for me and my marriage and to be a better father but it takes two to make it work i know that something going to give and I have to except which ever the outcome is staying strong is the hard part i don't think there someone else i have been there before and those signs are not there well when she was here there wasn't any so I gave her the benefit of doubt maybe I'm a fool maybe not cause I want it to work out but I'm starting to think it's time to start getting adjusted to be alone again