Divorce is final for a month and I still have days that fuck me up .i tell myself that I need to let go of her . She still doesn't have a job so I still help not as often I still pay for her phone so she can talk to the kids she only see them once month for only overnight I take them to her.i do it for the children. she left us i know that it's going to take time. But it still messes with me my head tells me to let go but my heart still hurts. But it's going a away. I keep praying for to let her go until that happens I won't start to heal.its still a fight between my head and heart. But the mind is starting to when. I know that it's going to take time. I just hate feeling like this the good day's are get more.staying strong for the kids.they are my world and im trying to be a stronger father for them. There with me for a reason. Thanks for a place to vent stay strong brother's