She sighed the paperwork today tomorrow is our anniversary 19 years married 21 together. it really hasn't hit me as hard yet.I was shaken up when I get it back from the attorney. But we talked about what happened to cause her to want this but we talked not yelled or screamed just talked. I told her that's all we had to do all a long. I'll have the kid's no alimony i don't want child support. She just is done.like a fool I don't want it to end.she left us.Im just numb. The hard part is going to be the co parent. Cause I still have to see her cause she doesn't drive and I have to bring her the kid's 5 hours away and I never would keep them from her. I still offer to help her cause she doesn't have a real job yet.just part time. Im just now starting to be just ok it hurts from time to time when she creeps in my mind. And I know that she never coming back home. I'm just here. thanks to all that has helped me with my journey and it's far from over. But to all the other guys stay strong it does get better but it a journey though hell that I don't wish on anyone divorce sucks and it will kick the shit out of you.just get the help,lean on someone that knows how it feels, counseling, workout,find God, do whatever it takes we will get thought this