I’ve got an issue. My ex wife was a cheater. She has many inappropriate relationships. Maybe not all sexual but mostly I assume. I know about a few that are 100% certain. She held me hostage because she knew how important family was to me and how I’d do anything to keep it all together until I couldn’t anymore. When I found out the 100% for sure sexual relationship she had I was crushed and hurt and furious. We spilt. I kicked her out. Six months or so after she left I found myself fantasizing about her affairs. Thinking about how hot it would’ve been to watch her getting fkd. I don’t know if it’s stress related and that my mind is trying to find a way to make it less painful or what it is. Things is…. It’s been five years since we split and it still crosses my mind daily. In a sexual way that turns me on. It is affecting my current relationship negatively when it comes to intimacy. Has anyone ever experienced anything like this? How do I shake it