Hello everyone. 39F, never been a part of the red pill culture. I grew up too different from such a culture to ever accept it.

My question though... To all the male RP'ers, or ex-RP'ers... or trying to be, who knows... (I'm trying to ask the ones who ended up in the extreme anti-women underground of this movement)

How in the world did you deal with this duality? You want women, but at the same time you hate them? You're expected to court them/have sex with them, but not want them? How do you deal with that emotionally?

I'm asking from an emotional/psychological perspective. I mean, what toll does it take on you?

Also, only ever share what you want to. This is still a public forum :)

Greetings from Belgium