I'm done, just done. Let me GMOW, I'll get a dog, a small house and just do my own damned thing.

Put house on the market yesterday and had one last try, text her this.

"Hey, I don’t want things to end like this without at least trying properly. I know I haven’t got everything right, but I do want a relationship where we both feel supported, appreciated, and happy.

I’ve been feeling worn out and like I’ve been carrying a lot on my own, I know you have as well, and we need that to change if we’re going to make this work. I want to be a good husband and dad, but I need to feel that we’re in it together.

If you’re open to it, I’d really like us to sit down and talk properly, without arguing, and see if we can find a way forward that works for both of us. If not, I’ll respect that—but I didn’t want to walk away without saying this."

There's no accountability from her, no recognition from her that she didn't support me. It's just "you need to do more for me, I'm special now, I can get any man I want".

Go on then, let them, go find him and don't let the door hit your arse on the way out.

Yeah I'm scared, yeah I'm terrified of spending the rest of my life alone and not feeling the warmth of a good woman but I would rather be on my own for the rest of my life than spend it trying to make a woman happy, who doesn't want to at least help me do that.

One thing as well, my new house is going to be a female free zone. If I do let a female in, they better bring something something to the table (no not dinner). They had better make my life better somehow and not just be all about what I do for her.

If you look back on my posts, I talk about my ex's best friend F.

Talking to F's husband (L) last night. F always said that if L was late from work and F is at work, she didn't want to know. F wanted L to just deal with it.

L got stuck in traffic one day from work, motorway was closed. So he phoned school up to let them know he would be late for the kids. He phoned up friends to arrange for them to pick them up and look after the kids for 30 mins.

F noticed from the house CCTV that he wasn't home when he should have been. She phoned him up and asked where he was. He told her he was late. She was shouting at him down the phone "WHY DIDNT YOU TELL ME, YOU ARE A DISGRACEFUL HUSBAND AND DAD, YOU ARE A WEAK PATHETIC MAN FOR BEING LATE FOR YOUR KIDS".

So he hung up. She phoned him back and said she wanted a divorce and he just said "good and told her to fuck off".

This is where my ex is getting her behaviour from and it is just downright nasty and abusive.