Former red piller here. Started with Rich Cooper back in the fall of 2021, watched him primarily until some point in early to mid 2025. Possibly even earlier, I’m not sure. Also listened to Myron Gaines and Andrew Tate. I’m sure there’s a couple others but I can’t remember.

Back in August of last year, I began to realize how much damage the red pill had caused in my life. But I didn’t give it much thought. Since this past May, it’s been dawning on me just how bad that damage actually was. Destroyed friendships, blown opportunities with women that I ruined simply by judging them, chronic loneliness, fear of women and dating, all that time lost, lying to myself about never dating or having a girlfriend ever again. The list goes on.

I admit this has been weighing on my soul and at times, I get so caught up in my head and can’t stop thinking about how much I messed up everything and how long the trail of destruction is behind me.

I can’t say there was one specific even that led me to find the red pill. I had friends back in the late 2010s that brought it up but I didn’t take it seriously then. I wasn’t a virgin before falling down the red pill rabbit hole. I had experiences with women that didn’t end up the way I wanted but that goes for all men out there.

The part that bothers me the most are the blown opportunities with women. Didn’t these red pill content creators promise me all these endless results with women? But how could that be achieved when you’re taught to essentially judge women and also be scared of them. It doesn’t make any sense.