I’m in my last year of college. I have the opportunity to pass exams that will allow me to get extra education (only 1 year) which will give me a great career (huge salary, connections). It’s going to put me way ahead of everyone else, basically I will have the opportunity to be in the top 5% professionally and financially. I also have to pass exams in order to get my driver’s license; I have to deal with projects and to manage lazy colleagues.

After the events that lead me to find TRP and the process of swallowing the pill, my life is in ruins (no friends, no sex). My health suffered greatly: my mental health is weak (no willpower, no drive, pessimistic thoughts, self pity parties and victim mentality). I just got over severe depression, panicks attacks, suicidal thoughts and paranoiac crisis so this might explain while I'm still mentally weak. I also face physical illness.

Doctors gives me medications to fight the physical illness so this is taken care of but the MENTAL part is a disaster.

The only good side of my situation is I began lifting and the results are showing. It makes a HUGE difference in my everyday life. When I look at myself in the mirror, I see progresses. When I work out, I find out mental and physical weaknesses and working out allows me to work on those weaknesses.

Tl;dr: I have one month to get in the top 5% or fall down to the top 75%, I am weak, I am down and if I keep going like I’ve been going for the past months, I will not make it. I’m alone in it.