Ok here's the thing I recently broke up with my LTR. We both came from a super strict and conservative upbringing, whole wait till marriage shebang and all, plus being raised as omega supreme. So no sex at all, just some slight sexual contact that always made her guilty cause it was "sinful". Before that relationship, nothing, cause young people aren't supposed to have relationships cause they can't marry. fucked up

Fast forward several years, I become increasingly miserable and take the plunge, wake up, break up, feel liberated and happy, RP makes fuckton of sense, start making friends (and meeting girls) outside fucked up bubble, work on myself, etc. BUT I'm still a virgin

Now, I'm dying to end this lifelong frustration of having sex denied to me in endless different forms, but having "waited" till 25 now, there's still the desire of wanting to do it with someone I care about. I don't know if it's still some residual BP shit, or it's a valid point or I just have to stop hamstering. Similar situations are appreciated!