Gentlemen,

I've been seeing counselors, domestic abuse resources, church leaders, and lawyers for months now. I've officially retained a lawyer. I've been organizing evidence for months now.

Looking back at my photos with the spouse, we have 10 years of memories together. The first 4-5 years were phenomenal. I sacrificed so much for her. I moved mountains for her.

The last 3-4 months have been extremely hard. My health is deteriorating. I'm about to officially ask the court to formally ask for the harassment to stop. But I feel guilty AF. WTF is wrong with me. I should feel happy for the peace that is about to come. But I also know once divorce is served, the spouse will escalate the harassment. To the point where I may react, and I don't want to react.

How did y'all get through the guilt and push through?