(Before we start, this is not a whining thread. I'm not just venting. I want to improve and grow if possible, and if not then gracefully accept my fate.)

I am not usually a pessimistic person, I have accomplished a lot through determination and resilience. But I'm quickly starting to think that evolution has basically designed me to become a beta provider and nothing more than that. Here's the lowdown of all the unchangeable traits that I have:

  • Indian with no western features like chiseled jaw, etc.

  • Short (bottom 10% of men in this country)

  • average face at best. Asymmetrical eyes, big nose, other stuff. r/AmiUgly and other sources confirmed that I'm a 5/10.

  • very soft spoken. When I'm in a club or bar talking to girls, half the conversation is them saying "WHAT?". Eventually they get annoyed and leave.

  • High pitched voice. I sound like a 12 year old. Tried self-therapy and vocal training through videos but nothing helps.

  • A dumpy body. I was an obese child. It wasn't until 19 that I got my shit together and worked out like a demon. I've lost most of that weight and built muscle... but it's hidden under layers of loose skin and scars. I can feel abs and a ripped physique growing inside but nobody can see them on the outside. When you look at me, you see a bag of jelly. I can't afford surgery right now to remove it.

All of this added together makes me seem like a little fuckboy who no girls want to be involved in. My Tinder matches, whenever I get any, are fat black chicks. The girls I know will keep me at arm's length and call me "such a good friend" but will never look at me sexually. The guys all treat me as a side show, not someone to be respected.

I have a few pro's. I'm a fairly good public speaker when addressing an audience in a quiet setting. I'm decently social, not painfully shy or anything. Have a good wardrobe too. I'm in medical school right now and hoping to be a surgeon.

With all of this in mind... give it to my straight, fellas. Is there any reasonable, meaningful chance that I can one day improve enough to be seen as a leader and a sexual being? I try so hard to make up for all my flaws but I feel like a hamster (lol) on a wheel.