I am fuming, super angry right now, and have been for the last 5 hours... I haven't been this angry in a long time now (years probably).

I expect it probably has to do with testosterone, as I finished a huge workout session today literally an hour before my blood started to boil. I've been like this for 5 hours now, and I've begun to have chest pain (exactly at my heart) which worries me, but I cannot calm down. Unfortunately I do not have a punching bag, and wrecking some of my furniture didn't help either. Eating doesn't help either, I'm like guzzling up everything.

So general how do you guys cool down thread?

DETAILS, no need to read if you don't want

Why I'm so angry: I lent my now ex-gf (since half a year now) my iPod Touch (for anyone unfamiliar it is an iPhone minus the ability to call and SMS) back when we were together, because she was constantly bored at the student hostel she stayed at. Back then I didn't realize how crazy I was for doing that, cause I already knew by then that she has NO respect for other's property, not even mine. So now I asked her to give it back, and lo and behold it's already gone. She told me that she hasn't seen it in months and she thinks someone stole it from her dorm... I'm 100% sure she is not keeping it for her self, she's not an asshole, she is simply a dumb bitch. I'm really mad at her for not respecting me enough to even TELL me that it has been gone for months, and not watching after it...

Now you may question why I'm so obsessed with this iPod. It's just an iPod right? Wrong. I held that iPod dear to me. It's part of my childhood. I saved up for it when I was ~15 years old, loved it, really took care of it (which is rare from me), and had been using it for years, and was still perfect. And it has monetary value of course, since it's an electronic device. It may not be much in the US, but where I live, it's almost a month's average paycheck. Which makes me even more angry that she didn't take care of it. The main reason I decided I'd lend it to her is because I currently have an iPad, which I used for MOST of the stuff I originally used the iPod for. But I guess that's what I get for trusting a bitch with stuff I hold dear to me... Fuck me, I'm so angry at myself (and her equally).

The thought that part of my history, my childhood is just gone, and most likely in some strangers hands makes me want to explode and kill someone. The thought that she just doesn't respect my shit like that, and doesn't even tell me.

The fact that I trusted a bitch with my shit makes me want to blow myself up.

/vent

anyway bonus points for anyone who has tips on gettin over losing something dear to me like that ^