I’ve had some victories and defeats, and I’m going to share them with you.
The first thing I did was to get my pathetic, weak ass to work. I do my own thing, so I don’t know much, but I watch YouTube videos so I can have proper form. I can now BP 145 and DL 160. My gym doesn’t have a working rowing machine. DB BP is 90, curls 50. However, I am struggling with my squats. Severe knee pain when I do anything over 60, so I stopped doing them.
I never got that internal job posting that I applied for at my company, but I did get a completely new job that pays even more than that job I interviewed for. I bumped up my salary $12,000 a year by taking on this new job. And I paid my car off back in February.
I have not touched hard liquor since January, but I have slowly eased into drinking a beer here or there. At first, my wife was livid, said I promised that I would never drink again. I said I never promised anything, and to back off and let me deal with this on my own and I don’t need anyone to referee the decisions I make for myself. And she backed off and is completely fine with my drinking a beer every now and again.
I completely lost my frame when my wife criticized my driving. I got angry, I lashed out, pulled over the car and made her drive while making snide comments at her for the whole rest of the trip. It really pissed her off, but I was 100% enjoying pushing her buttons. Then, I realized later that night that I was acting like a man child all day long, in front of the children, so I apologized to her and the children the next day.
Sex has gotten better. So much better. My wife now says things like “make me your bitch.” She likes her hair pulled while being fucked from behind, and the spontaneous blowjobs have sharply increased.
Not much has happened other than that. But I am still here, still going strong, petal to the metal. I’m going to post this update and GTFO because I need to be at the gym in 30 minutes.