I'm posting this for my own Red Pill development and for the development of others here. I know we are only gonna get good shit here by posting good shit so here I go.

I have my first plate now. All you need to know is that she is 30, asian, and way too attractive for her age and shes got the body of a 20 year old.

We met downtown where I live and I got her number after having some small talk about last week. We hung out for the first time yesterday, got drinks, and chilled at my place watching movies. All this time I'm getting her to emotionally invest in me, I'm continually escalating physically and via emotional spikes. Lo and behold I get shit tested about sexual history, my last gf, have i ever been with an older women, do I think she is a good girl, and blah blah blah. I hold frame, listen to her actions not her words and we bang.

We hung out again today. Got drinks. Came to my place and bang again even better. Nothing too crazy right? Should be an open and shut case right?

Here's what I don't get and where I could really use input. I'm 23. She has a bf who is 31. I'm an attractive guy but this guy wins over me because he's like ripped and takes care of himself lifting wise. Probably has his career settled and everything BUT THIS GIRL LIKE GIVES ME ALL THE SIGNS THAT SAYS FUCK ME AND SHE GOES HOME AND PLAYS IT OFF LIKE I COULD NEVER TELL MY BF BUT I STILL WANT TO BE FRIENDS WITH YOU. And I know the want to be friends part is her saying "I still want you in my life to be fucking me but I almost want to appear guilty that I cheated on my boyfriend so I don't look like a slut to YOU not my BF".

WTF

How? Why?

Is this the effects of the wall? Have I just got in touch with my alpha side and this guy is actually a beta bux who is like obviously way better looking than me? I'm not ugly but hes taller and got the fitness down. I'm athletic just not buff like him yet.

But this girl will hang out with me, while texting her bf, come to my place when she knows we are gonna fuck, asks me for a back massage today before I even escalate after her telling me she doesn't want to fuck again in text YESTERDAY and lo and behold we FUCK AGAIN.

Like I've read the field reports here. The stories. I give them all the benefit of the doubt and I'm learning everything here as much as I can but now I have my own field report with this hot ass chick who I never would have thought I could ever pull off getting with in my bluepill self? Actually bluepill me would have been like "OHH YOU HAVE A BF, LET ME DO THE RIGHT THING AND NOT TALK TO YOU CAUSE ITS DISHONORABLE TO EVEN THINK TO TALK A WOMEN WITH A BF" or something gay like that.

The fuck?

Anyways my frame with her right now after today is that we are gonna be friends because im 23 and I am not what she needs in her life right now so I don't want to ruin what she has with her bf cause he can give her what she needs cause I can't settle down and tbh i don't want to get into an ltr or even marriage with a woman 7 years older than me so we are still gonna be "friends" but we definitely CAN'T do this again because she's a GOOD GIRL and feels GUILTY but she could never tell her bf because it would HURT HIM SO MUCH.

Is this Red Pill? Am I making progress towards Alpha? What do I need to know? What do I need be doing? Is my frame wrong?

I told her that I'm attracted to good girls and the fact she has a bf makes me more attracted to her and it's something I can't help.

Also we've both been through a similar experience where we lost someone close to us so I kinda went dark triad and used that to deepen the bond between me and her in such a way that it was like "we've both been through the same experience and we understand each other unlike most people."

So after banging I was trying to frame it like, " We are just two people who understand the others pain, it's not cheating, this is just something we can only get from each other."

Is that dark triad?

Anyways, thoughts? Questions? Input? Criticisms?

I'm here to learn so please fire away and let me know if there are anymore details I should be adding. I don't really know how much I should be giving out and how much I should be retaining just cause this is the internet and all but I don't want to retain what could be wisdom and growth for this community. I can't go back. The Red Pill has pretty much saved my life.

Anyways, I realize now my worth and value and it's not about the fact that I fucked a girl so beautiful and special and whatever blah blah blah. It's now about the fact that I am a man of value who's worth is found in himself and his satisfaction is found in his personal growth in the areas of his life he deems important via the pursuit of excellence and there is no pussy in my life that should not be riding my cock and there is no pussy off limits to me. (except like my family,underage, whatever you get the idea.)

I hope I am going in the right direction here, which is why I am posting. Am I doing this right?

tl;dr Bella Swan is a clumsy, kind hearted teenager with a knack for getting into trouble. Edward Cullen is an intelligent, good looking vampire who is trying to hide his secret. Against all odds, the two fall in love but will a pack of blood thirsty trackers and the disapproval of their family and friends separate them?

Edit1: Also I just read in the flair thing that I am supposed to post FRs on Mondays. I hope this is still cool.