Lately my Borderline has gotten out of control, and I've been on edge around everyone.. I can't even feel calm and stable anymore. I can tell that I have upset my girlfriend 2-3 times, which she really did hold on to but after a few more shit I blew up on her I see her being irritable, like yesterday I would ignore her and reply after 1 hour, and she was like " fine goodnight!" then a min. later when I said "damn why so irritated.. Goodnight" she was like "I'm not irritated my messenger is tripping sorry baby"

I asked her today why she's angry these days, and she said she's got some problems like a fast heart beat, low calcium etc. which worry her and it's true so it makes her explode at moments, these past 4 days it was carnival, we went out and had fun but the next day her parents left her at home and she couldn't go out so she started drinking wine(?) I told her I'm concerned about her health too and that she should stop drinking every day ever since, if she wants to be with me.

I know I fucked up is there a way to make her sub and more obedient again? I don't know if it all my fault or partly her health problems and me too, I guess it's the second.. I was thinking of letting her at ease for a few days and do my own thing. I got to treat my BPD before my paranoia bombs my relationships again and pushes the people away. She knows I'm paranoid and suspicious of people and it brings her in a difficult position when I'm suspicious of her motives, says I don't trust her etc. and looks sad. Whatever..

I'd appreciate a little help from you guys, haven't been here in a while.