I've had a lot more success with women in general after i started to delve into TRP. For some reason though, i can't seem to fully enjoy the hookups i have with girls. I keep thinking about consequences and "what if's", instead of enjoying the experience. For example; one of the recent girls i slept with. Yesterday, i met her at the club on the dancing floor late at night. She came home with me. We fucked three times and it was pretty good. Before we started, she was about to mount me, and i asked if she was on the pill, in which she said no. I then grabbed condoms, as i don't sleep with random girls without protection. I only had two, so she grabbed some from her purse on the third fuck. She left early next morning on her own accord. I should be satisfied, it sounds perfect, but instead i'm just worrying.

Tonight, she texted me late saying "she wanted to suck my dick again". She came over, and we fucked, using her condoms again. She's very submissve, does what i ask her to do, and it was pretty good. Twice, when we fucked, did the condom kinda fall off. I tried to check to see if the condom was on regularly, so i'm quite sure i only did a few thrusts, if any at all, after it fell off. I didn't cum at all when fucking, she sucked me off instead. She again left early, on her own accord, which is perfect so i don't need to deal with anything next day. Why can't i just be happy and satisfied that about this? What's the point of this type of lifestyle if i can't enjoy it? I keep worrying, and remembering horror-stories about girls making holes in condoms to get pregnant, STD's, her wanting more than just sex, etc etc. I can't really relax until some time has passed. Why am i like this? I'm just overreacting right? Currently i'm worried and almost want to text her asking if she can take a "morning after pill", even though it seems kinda silly. This girl could be a perfect plate, yet it's all in vain if i can't get in the right mindset for this. What's wrong with me?