Simple question, when you get really emotional and angry, you do not know what to do with all the anger, what do you do?

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Background (not necessary to read)

In my case, raised by single mother, one night stand, never had a dad, mom is an alpha widow, she have not been with a guy for over 2 decades. Physical and economical I had a good childhood, but emotional it was a trainwreck. I am really short and ripped.

Often I see girl reject me just because of my height, most chick are taller than me. Never been successful with girls. I read TRP content every day and tries to be better with women every time but I always fail. Many times I get really angry, often the angers origin from a bitch, my mom or from not having a dad. I often have so much anger that I do not know what to do with it, I just stand and shaking and scream into the mirror, feel like smashing up my house, drive the car into the lake with me inside, take my motorbike and just smack into a tree, take a knife and cut myself etc. Sometimes I smash something, cut myself, drive like a maniac with my bike etc, been close to die many times because of this. Do you guys also feel like this a couple of times a month?( I have been seeing a therapist for my problems)