Met a hyper slut off tinder. Dated for 6-7 months. Every red flag in the book (high n count, alpha widow ex, socia media addict etc) developed really strong feels, made her LTR. She cheats/sleeps around (not surprisng). I'm devestated. Guess it was just my turn. She was such a great fuck though legit amazing... wish i kept her as a plate she loved anal/dildos/great innie vagina etc.

After the break up i plated a few girls but they wern't great (6/10s max one was bad in bed).. then covid hit / lock down so i just been monk mode for the last year pretty much working from home. I've spoken to a few girs online but don't really care. I do admit i fucked a hooker a month ago as i felt desperate.

Although my memories of her have faded a tonne I've found myself thinking of my ex lately. I'm missing female energy. Femle perfume, making a girl laugh, the sex, build up, even just a cuddle and holding hands (no beta)... the intimacy.. sex etc.

How do I stop being so beta? I'm kinda missing my ex not gonna lie. Help me.