I really like this girl, and there are signs shes interested in me aswell (usually starts convos, makes contact)

But the problem is I have a shitty social life, and even though I study in the best college in my city I have shitty grades rn. All of this compiled with my terrible social life are making me feel so desperate for her. I have tried improving my social life but its fucking worse now. I feel so done with life.