I've been debating if I should even ask this, but I need help. I got into the red pill a while back, not deeply, just shallowly listening to it. It seems that according to trp alphas are what men should be; this idea also seems common in most media. I don't have the attributes of an alpha, and it is really worrying me. I'm going into college, I've never dated due to being averse to socilization (i have high functioning autism), and I think I'd be classified as a beta. I'm not assertive or dominate, i'm quiet, thoughtful, and generally timid. I also cry every 2 or so months due to being overwhelmed by stress. I also have a number of pshycological and physical problems: a serious anxiety disorder, cerebral palsy, asthma, autism, etc. Despite this I have qualities of "classic" masculinity; I'm protective, loyal to a fault, and I have a rigorous code of honor and morals. I'm really afraid I won't be able to get a girlfriend without changing myself to be more alpha. I apologise for the length and tedious nature of this post, but I felt I had to give adequate context. Does anyone have any advice?