Today marks what would have been my 1st anniversary with my ex Ltr and I never felt more depressed. I woke up, took a shower, ate breakfast, went to work, had a semi-productive day except for the few reminders of ex Oneitis, like remembering our daily morning calls - gay as fuck I know etc

Then all of a sudden around 2PM my phone started buzzing, I looked at it and it's a fucking reminder I had set before we broke up back in September to remind me of our "anniversary". Was planning a surprise dinner etc

My mood immediately took a 360 turn. Since then I've been thinking what else can I do to forget she ever existed and forget this relationship ever happened?

Red pill says NOC - I did that Red pill says remove all pics , texts etc - I did that Red pill says remove social media - well she did it for me she removed herself from SM entirely Red pill says lift - started lifting Red pill says sidebar - fucking hard but am forcing myself to read more everyday Red pill says game other women - I tried and I couldn't stop thinking of my Oneitis even while talking to other women, and the 2 times I had women at my place I couldn't get myself to even feel their presence

What else can the red pill say? Other than I am the biggest pussy fag ever! When will this mental torture end? It's been 2.5 months. Isn't that a long enough time?