Suicide.

oldslut · 2019-12-29T21:36:27+00:00

barry, there are so many great htings to live for, even if they aren't apparent right now.

first off, i would suggest you finding someone to talk to. if you don't have a friend (as you mentioned in your post) then find a professional. it really helps to bounce ideas and thoughts and feelings off someone that will not judge you. i know, i've been there.

then, i would also look into taking a few vitamins. magnesium for starters has been shown in many studies to do much better than anti depressants. a multivitimin and some d3 also might help. i know they have helped me too.

i had a very dark period in my life, and i can understand, at least as someone anonymously can in a situation like this. hang in there. if you need to chat, send me a pm and i would be happy to chat it out.

cheers

vandaalen · 2019-12-29T22:03:02+00:00

There is no magic wisdom. There is no quick fix, especially not for your situation. There is just pulling yourself out of the shithole you are in, slowly but steadily.

It took me eight years to go from wanting to kill myself to every once in a while thinking "life is good" and I am still not even half the way I want to go.

I obviously don't know anything about your situation other than you think that you will never get out of it. I know the feeling. I know how it is to feel absolutely powerless. I was literally living behind closed curtains, not executing the most basic of tasks like grooming myself and washing my clothes. I was smelling like a bum. Literally. I felt so weak that I spent most of my days in bed just altering between sleeping and laying there thinking about how bad my life is. If it wasn't for my daughter, I would not be here.

It took me eight fucking years to get to where I am. I am not some kind of Uberchad, I am not a millionaire, but I am at least partly living a happy life.

I went from having just one friend (who wasn't even a real friend, but a sociopathic energy vampire), being unemployed and on the verge of becoming homeless, smoking 30-40 cigarettes a day and abusing alcohol as well as other drugs, to being a well known person in my nation's BJJ scene, with two businesses (which admittedly did not make me rich up to now, but allow me to be independent and live life the way I like to), who is the fittest he has ever been. I have sex regularly and I lead a very busy and sometimes even exciting life.

There is nothing special that happened. It's just one thing that lead to another. I took one baby step after the other. In my case the most important thing was quitting alcohol. This is what started it all. I never had a plan where I would end.

All I can tell you is that whatever you think is unreachable for you, it isn't. You can lead a happy life. If you off yourself you will never grow to see what could become of you. It's very exciting to see what you are capable of. I am able to do things I never would have dreamed of back then. Things that sound laughable to other people, like i.e. doing a proper headstand and dropping into a bridge. I found out that I am competitive and actually can fight. To other people this is not much, to me it means the world.

You have so much potential in yourself that just wants to be discovered.

I don't know what you already tried, but the default starting point "lifting" is here for a reason. I personally recommend BJJ, especially if you are looking for a great community.

Other than that, you need to get rid of your victim's mindset and acknowledge that you are the only one who can save yourself and that you sure as fuck have everything it needs.

If you need motivation, read Dacid Goggins - Can't hurt me, or yet better listen to the ausio book. It's on audible. This guy was severly hurt as well, but he made it out.

Just make the concious decision that you will start the journey to become the best possible version of yourself. Don't do it for having friends or connections. Do it for yourself. Do it to have options in life and do it because you deserve to be happy.

I sincerly wish you all the best. Should you need someone to talk, PM me.

sir_shitfuck · 2019-12-29T21:41:58+00:00

In a suicidal state you have very low energy, you are around the energy field known as apathy, to other people it is a needy repulsive energy field (I am truly being honest this is how it is unfortunately).

You need to raise this, obviously easier said than done, get fucking angry at the injustice of the world, at god, at your current situation. Then pretend you are already dead and nothing matters, what would you do in your life? Then fuck it go for it, you don't care if you die so you can go balls to the wall after your endeavor.

Then from there your energy should be continually raising higher and higher, from that you will attract more high quality people to you.

Check out the book Power Vs Force and Letting Go, both by David Hawkins, 100% read them as they will lift you out of your depression like they have many other people.

Kindle versions available via libgen.is

Also the spiritual literature which makes a lot of sense in the context of greater reality basically says that suicide will not solve your problems, rather in your next incarnation reality will be more twisted and you will need to find your way out of an even more difficult situation. So please man don't act upon the suicidal urge, for your own sake.

mythrowaway863 · 2019-12-29T22:26:23+00:00

"It's not that you want to die. You just want your life as it is right now to end."

You're in a very dark place now. Partially made by your surroundings and the people around you, but also partially caused by the decisions that you've made and how you've chosen to life your life so far. You gotta take responsibility for it, you probably fked up somewhere like we all have done. And that's okay because it has passed now and there's nothing that you can change about it. The only thing that you can impact right now are the decisions you are gonna make from now on.

The fact that you have few family or friends that really love you is a problem indeed, but what's more of a problem is that you don't love yourself. No human can live a fullfilling life without loving himself first.

For that to happen you need a change in your way of thinking and an improvement of yourself. Both are necessary, because a great man that doesn't like who he his will not remain great and a fool who loves who he is will always remain a fool.

improve yourself:

- joining the gym is one of the best cost/benefit ways of doing this. You know what you're doing is usefull and will benefit you and it's as simple as can be.

PM me if you want the starters info, because it's easy to fk up somewhere and have too few progress to be demotivated. good science based sources: Jeff Nippard, Vitruvianphysique, Eric Helms pyramid books

- Improve your personality by learning to be more funny, how to handle interactions better etc (watch some docu's, read some books about it). There's a reason why you don't have many people around you, find this reason and search for solutions.

- get out of your boring cycle. Yeah yeah you need the money but if you wait to long with this, you might not need it anymore soon...

Change your mentality:

- I just started reading into stoicism and it has completely shifted my mentality for the better and made me realise what's really important in life and what's redundant. Beginners book: stoicism and the art of happiness by Donald Robbertson (free download on pdfdrive)

- Being strong isn't about suppressing emotions if you would be thinking this.

A brave man isn’t someone who doesn’t experience any trace of anxiety whatsoever but someone who acts courageously despite feeling nervous. If you wouldn't have any anxieties, there wouldn't be moments in your life to be brave and though.

Moral of the story comes down to my first sentence. You don't want to end it and you know it deep down, you just don't see any other way. There are ways, you just haven't found them yet. You have so many potential improvements that you can make, but you have to take the responsibility to make these changes.

PM me if you want to talk

trunksshortsman · 2019-12-29T21:32:01+00:00

Call a suicide hotline and ask them for help.Focus on yourself right now.Fuck everything else and fix yourself first.

Terdmuffin · 2019-12-29T21:41:59+00:00

There probably haven't been any meaningful responses because there aren't very many people here equipped to handle this situation via this format. Call a hotline. See a counselor. Find a group. There's help and support out there. No one here is going to "rip you a new asshole" over this.

Someone here saying "suck it up, buttercup" Isn't going to change anything for you. Get some real help my man.

Title	Suicide.
Author	BarrySad
Upvotes	3
Comments	12
Date	December 29, 2019 9:17 PM UTC (6 years ago)
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