I'm a 19 year old guy with no self esteem at all. I just hate how much of a loser I am and basically everything about myself. I don't have a big talent for anything, my personality is not that cool, and I'm not intelligent. In fact I try to avoid reading difficult books because I know it'll only makes me disappointed with myself. I feel like I'm lost in life, so this is not just about being ugly and not having a relationship, although that plays a huge part in how I feel.
The feeling that life makes no sense is overwhelming. I finished high school( thoughafter failing twice due to my lack of ability in math and physics) but now I don't really wanna go to college, but I'm too lazy to find a job either. And even if I did, what's the point? I see so many people being happy and I can't help but feel that's not for me. I'm not destined feel joy in this life, to share moments of happiness with someone I love and work with something I love(I have no idea what that would be). When I go out and see couples I just feel and wanna cry. Every time I hear a girl saying a boy is ''cute'' or ''handsome'' I get sad too cause I know they'll never talk about me using such words. Pathetic, I know. I've thought about killing myself many times
I ended up on red pill and incels boards and actually started to believe that women only go for alpha males with ''masculine traits'' and that losers like me will never get laid. and if I do, will be with a woman who only cares about my money(if I had it) or for pity. I don't want to hate women but I also feel there's some truth to the red pill ideology and the female nature. Specially since I've been buillied before because of my looks by females. please help me. I'm just so lost in life. I feel like TRP just made me hate myself even more
and sorry for any english mistakes, it's not my native language
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