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So i matched a beautiful persian model tier kylie jenner lookalike girl through tinder. We had 3 dates. We went drink in bar. everything seemed to go well 2 hour long convo in bar. She even said i reminded her of hollywood actor matthew settle. So we exit bar after 2 hour convo. I thought i had this in the bag. We were walking outside she had her hands in her pocket. But then it got awkward when i took her hand out of her pocket and held her hand While walking outside to the parking garage. She asked if i held her hand cuz its cold. i replied yes. So i wasnt honest. I shouldve just said: “ Nah bby i dont need a reason to hold your hand wink” wouldve been much more alpha low inhib ( have been told women appreciate that type of behavior) Note this is fuckup #1) Then i asked to drive her home so that she wouldnt have to wait outside on the bus. She refused. Says her bus will arrive in 5 mins and thanks me for the offer. Then we reach the parking garage. We about to say goodbye. I turn to her and try to gaze in her eyes. But she went straight for the kiss without eyecontact. So we kissed for 1 min. She giggled at the last 10 seconds. Then we stopped. I looked at her and said i like seeing her. Then she said “ i like seeing you too”. Then i said i love her in persian in a playful non serious tone. (Note fuckup #2) She was non responsive. I guess she giggled a bit. But was awkward probably. And then we left.

Few days later she texted me this:

“Hey sorry for my late reply but was still confused with myself. I have just come from a relationship 3 months ago and I thought I was ready to go dating, but the last few days I felt that I am not really ready to open myself up again ... I really like you that is why I also wanted to meet 3 times with you, but as long as I don't get over it, I can't honestly date. I really hope you don't mind and understand me, because I really didn't want to waste your time, I wouldn't meet with someone several times if I wasn't interested, but I just found out that I'm not ready for that”

Is this an excuse laddingtons ? Polite rejection?

Also very important context: I have told her i love her in one of my first few tinder message exchanges before having our 1st date. To show her i know some persian and that my persian friends taught me this. I did this to be playful and interesting i guess. I love you in farsi is like this: Joon kheyli dooset daram

Her reply on tinder to my “ i love you” message was:

“Hahaha put a ring on it”

I replied “ making fast moves are we? How about a drink first ? ;) “

Henceforth it lead to our first date.

So i thought saying this after our first kiss. Would be a cute throwback to our tinder messages.

But anyway looks > personality right ? Doesnt matter how autistic i was behaving. I wouldve gotten away with it and she would still be dating me if she found me attractive enough. This is my conclusion and most likely found a gigachad that mogs me in some way. Is this the reality of it ? If this is the case then its not in my circle of influence. Or do the majority of you say her interest was in my circle of influence and her attraction was dependent on the right words said and words being left not said ( mentioning love) and so i truly can blame myself for not getting laid with her

But this would imply personality > looks