This has nothing to do with women. I've gotten to a point where I'm struggling to find reasons to live. I sustain basically on drugs and constantly ignore/procrastinate my problems such as extreme financial debt and depression/anxiety. I can't force myself to go to the gym anymore or even do anything besides drink smoke weed and play video games. I feel like I'm in a loop that will only end when I blow my fucking brains out. 22 btw