No matter how much I believe i'm on the track towards becoming red-pilled, life has a consistent reminder that i have a long way to go to overcome my 30++ odd blue-ness years.

This realization occured after I went out on a date last week with a woman who would have been soooo out of my league just 3 years ago that i wouldn't even had bothered to say hi much less ask her out.

She:

  1. Works in a Top 4 Fortune 500 IT Company (Hint: Sth like Google) andddd.... is the front face for the organization for their events (meaning 'beauty' is just one of her highlights)
  2. Keeps herself in shape.
  3. Recently separated after 14 years of marriage. To the best of my understanding, doesn't fool around but i could be wrong.

I got to know her as a consultant on one of my organization's projects and due to complementary industries we would often run into each other at events. Each time i felt we connected well and this month finally asked her out for coffee at our local cafe.

Good:

  1. Instant physical connection: Hug when she met. Touching of hands was often by both.
  2. Was wearing a see through. (drool)
  3. Good rapport. We connected well. Our personalities, our interests are similar, even the way we think.
  4. She said she is turned on by intelligence and she found me most intelligent.
  5. Laughed quite a few times.
  6. She enjoyed the food i ordered for her.

Bad:

  1. Conversations were Friendship or Intellectual based: Her kids, her life, her stress in her work, how she's coping with being a super mom, history. *ugh*
  2. Was quite distracted (consistent phone calls) though she put them on hold whilst she was with me.
  3. Was distracted when she left, even though she sent about 10 messages after.

I have whatsapped her a few times since the meeting and whilst she's answering back within reasonable time and i'm maintaining the 1:3 ratio, i feel i'm losing her interest.

Problem:

"I'm too friendly, i come across as too friendly and frankly speaking I'm available too much"

E.g. one of the texts i sent today was "Recommend somethings to watch for me during this virus since our interests are pretty much the same".

This post also comes on the heels of the fact that another girl who i took out a few times, recently got engaged and i just saw that that she's completely blocked me from her phones and social media. I knew about the engagement but i thought we had great chemistry and will at least stay friends.

I dry up pussy faster than a cooling fan. That is the truth :(

So fellow brothers, what is the way out for this.

I'm practicing meditation / gym daily (this week fitted into M shirts and my muscles / six packs are being outlined now) and work really has improved because of them. I'm most grateful that post-TRP everything in my life is better (probably the reason why said women even went out with me). Yet when it comes to basic things like social interactions, i'm not blue pilled i'm a Pussy.

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