Here is a blue pill example, talking about my story. My confused, slightly miserable story, until now. So lets begin. Im a University student who goes to a decently rated University; a Uni known for good grades, but chill atmosphere and laid back people. Im almost 19 and starting my second year of Law/Corporate Finance double degree. Im 6ft with 7-8+/10 looks. I am from a decently wealthy family, althought have experienced both worlds by growing up effectively on welfare payments. Explaining why my parents dont splash me with money, but instead state that I should work for it; and I agree. I have a decent body, not overly Chad like, but its decent. From reading other threads explaining the "luck of the draw" when approaching under 25 year olds and their college experiences, it seems that Im ticking all the right boxes. All this going for me, and Im a virgin.

So lets get into it. I had a chance to lose my virginity but got whisky dick/nerves and couldnt get it up. I think it was more insecurities than alcohol as Ive always seen myself as "small", both body size and downstairs. I was a really late developer, growing for what it seems only in the last 2 years. Now Im tall, bit beefier and above average down stairs. I still have these insecurities, although, this isnt the issue and never was the issue. I was the textbook beta. My game was and overall frame.

This was my game as follows:

  • Talk to girl very briefly in person

  • Message them through snapchat/FB for weeks/months gaining a friendship (the oppisite of what what I wanted = logic?)

  • After completley cock blocking myself, declare my love for them.

    Surprisingly, probably due to my luck of the draw or the girls I were "friending" , 40% were like, fuck it, sure.

Why did I do this? Mainly because I was a beta pussy and didnt want to game to their face to avoid IRL rejection. Why did I wait weeks/months? Probably to avoid rejection too, while also feeling that was the best way to go about things to avoid coming off as a creep. Why didnt I go up to girls at the club/around campus/etc? Because i was a pussy and didnt want to be rejected or come off as a creep.

I also blew off a couple other chances of losing my virginity, although these are more justified. Sober, completley drunk girls knocking at my door at 2am to say "hi". Obviously keen (I never talk to these girls, and apparently they were knocking on my door for a solid 20 minutes in the cold). This is more being sober, I said no because of my degree's and accompaning career path. Having a rape allegation on my record, EVEN if it wasnt proven, I wouldnt be able to find a job at all. Not in this job market with even a scratch on my background check. Do I regret this? Yes and no. Risk vs Reward. What do I regret? Failing to follow up when I was sober. Again, because I was a beta cuck.

After being in the process of friendzoning myself, yet again, I was reading reddit and saw a comment from a blue piller talking shit about The Red Pill .

2 weeks later, I have bought the pill and about to swallow it. Really put it into action when Uni starts again and I cant wait. Its been a unique experience reading, and finding out step by step what I have done so utterly wrong. But I am so thankful I found out at 18, and not at 30. I know it will be hard until 25, but I am building on myself in all aspects and am becoming the best version of myself. In saying this Im going all for it straight away, just knowing that it will be likely that I wont be so lucky. Ill give an update post soon, but hopefully some people can relate to this post or learn from it.

Im glad to finally transition to the arguable 5-10% who actually have balls. The red pillers. The chads.