So I posted my original post below in relationship advice and got so much crap for it. They made it sound like what I was hoping for was unrealistic and some accused me of being a redpiller so I might as much well post this here:

Ok I am 24 and really lost and everything I read just simply doesn’t hold true in the real world. I’ve had a very harsh life (not going to get into that sorry) growing up so I lack in the relationships department as I have never been in one. I am actually pretty attractive according to most people and I do get plenty of attention (as in people staring and weird men trying to cop a feel) everywhere I go, so I don’t think I am lacking in the looks department but I don’t understand why respectable guys just don’t approach me. I do not look guys in the eyes and I never ever smile at them because I simply don’t know how to do so and I am afraid they would reject me. But the biggest part is I am actually intimidated by men, I don’t know how to be comfortable around them. I can pretend very well but inside I am freaking out.

I go to clubs in hopes to try and run into someone but that never happens because well I just end up dancing and never look at guys (I don’t give people eye contact because when I do I just see a bunch of people gawking at me and that makes me uncomfortable immediately). My anxiety started because I get a lot of attention although I am being very honest when I say I don’t think I am all that. People have said I could be a model but let’s just not focus on that. I don’t know how to check guys out anywhere I go, am I supposed to scan the room and then what? Everywhere else I go, people simply don’t stop each other, much less find mates. I mean where am I supposed to run into this guy? On the train? how do I begin to look for a man? Seriously?

I want to be a housewife and never work. I want my man to come to a clean welcoming home with food made from my loving hands. I just need him to give me money to maintain my body because I treat it as a temple, unless he wants to come back to dry sandpaper legs. I will do as he pleases when we are home together, fulfill all his sexual desires and I would ENJOY that. I just don’t know where to look, I have tried online dating apps but the convos always never end up going ANYWHERE.

EDIT: I did get my bachelors and have worked for 5 years total now and I absolutely hate working and do not want to move on with my education, Id rather be home keeping my home in check and pleasing my husband and feeling free from corporate torture amongst people who don’t care about me and bosses who love to tower over me.