In my life, it's been a handful of women I really desired. A few girlfriends, a few crushes, and lately, nobody.

As I've gotten deeper into MGTOW, the 'paint has come off the 'turd' so to speak, and women are a lot less interesting to me. Most just gross me the fuck out; they're so basic, dumb and generic.

The women I've really liked were certainly different, and fit into what I like and desire, certain characteristics. Shouldn't it be that way for everyone?

But these days, they all look like fake, make-up covered Instagram whores, with fake smiles and basic, Normie, cookie-cutter personalities. I can't find any desire there, any real interest; yeah, I'd probably fuck a lot of them, but the effort to get there isn't worth it.

I miss the days of crushing on a girl, some unique snowflake who I was convinced was the 'one'... that feeling is great, that desire, that connection, when you meet that girl.

But at this point in my life, I'm not finding her.